The Hesitant Warrior

As many of you know I like to attend an online church and by attend I mean I like to watch there sermon videos online. I am not really sure why but they all ways talk to me, and hit me with something that I know I need to deal with and/or that I am struggling with. I usually check it about once every two to three weeks and see what is going on and man the new series they are doing is just really hitting me hard right now.

The series that they are doing is called "The Warrior" and it is manly about making sure that men are who they are supposed to be and, that is men. It is funny because I have been hit with this from all sorts of angels lately. A couple of weeks ago I saw a really funny video off of David Crowder's Blog that was really funny but I felt that even thow this pastor went to an extreme that he made some good points. Now I found that my guys at lifechurch.tv are doing a five week study and being a warrior for Christ and the first two have been trying to help guys fill the roles they are meant to play in this world.

Now that I have this big intro done lets get to why I titled this post "The Hesitant Warrior". While working tonight I watched the first and second weeks of this series and man did the second one speak to me or should I say God used the second one to speak to me. This weeks was all about how guys do not like to fail and that when they do they internalize it and stays with them to the point that from now on they become more and more hesitant to act.

This is huge for me I have never really tired and failed a lot of things but the fear of failure keeps me from tiring things. The sermon talks that as Christian Men when we fail or fear it is because our fear out ways our faith in God. Craig(the pastor of LifeChurch.tv) used the story of Peter walking on water and how when he started to doubt he started to sink. Now I have used this before in many a club talk or campaigners but for some reason the idea that it was a lack of faith in God not in my abilities to walk on water really stood out to me more so than any other time.

The Main theme of the series is that God made man to be a warrior and that we need to step up and fight for what God wants us to fight for and to hesitate. Hesitating is never a good thing, for example if deer is standing in the road and a car comes if the deer picks a directions and trust that God gave that deer the right way to go it will live but, if it hesitates and moves slightly one way and then the other it will most likely get hit by the car and die. The same is true with us if we hesitate and don't trust God we will fail.

Back to fighting for God what does this mean, it means that we need to be men and that even thow society is tyring to get us to become more unlikely to fight and less competitive it goes against what God designed us as men for. This is why we need to keep score in little league games, if we don't then they guys are just going to find something less productive and most likely more destructive and harmfully to compete at or fight for.

This Might not make a lot of sense so I encourage you to watch these videos they are about a half hour long but really interesting so check them out and let me know what you think. The link is below.

The Warrior Week 1

The Warrior Week 2


One last thing I know that I am not a Good writer and I am sorry to those who find it hard to read my post. Feel free to fix them and email them back to me and I will hopefully get better for you.

Blunt?

I have always been known for being a blunt person or someone who does not sugar coat things in order to not offed or hurt. How ever that is not fully true I have been tiring to get better at it and I have all ways tried not to be because I do not wish to hurt people I love people.

The reason for this post is that I have been asked to be as blunt and honest as I want or can about something and I just can't decide if I should. With out letting you know what exactly it is lets just say that me being blunt and honest could really make some great changes that need to happen or it could just really hurt people and have no effect on change. I am reminded of the episode of Seinfeld which George is honest as to why he broke up with this girl and she flips out and puts her self in a mental institution. She asked for the truth but she could not handle the truth (please make your movie reference hear) and because he did what she asked he hurt and did not help. I don't wish to hurt unless it will help and in the end not hurt because it will make sense.

If anyone has any thoughts on what they think God would want or what they would please post them so that I can try and figure this out.